I have been posting for almost a year on my blog at peacetranscends.com, but I only openly shared the site with a select group of people. I plan to write and one day, to speak to provide healing for others during their struggle. I wrote a piece entitled, "Why Me?" I hope you gain an understanding of what has to happen before healing begins.
How many times have you asked the question “why me”? I have asked it too many times to count. A recent event left me traumatized, wondering whether I would ever feel relief from the blows of this world. They have hit again and again over the years, and as I start thinking a period of calm has come…Wham!!! The sledge hammer comes down and breaks me again.
I woke one morning, wondering how I would stand in front of my class feeling so broken. I contemplated what activity the class could work on so I wouldn’t have to teach. Then, a friend sends me an image of a broken lady and under it reads these words, “Let them see the brokenness. Let them see the cracks. That’s how the light gets out.” These words resonated with me and suddenly I saw my brokenness as an opportunity for healing.
As class started, I told the students I had gone through some rough days and asked them to overlook anything I said that didn’t make sense. As it turns out, my students are very compassionate and one in particular, my student worker, kept me organized all week. Tears fell like rain that day, but my brokenness that day wasn't so bad; others stepped up and took care of me. This, my friend was a great feeling.
A few days later, I travel down to North Carolina to visit with my son for a few days. We are having the time of our life. We attend a Chancellor's dinner, watch a football game, hike in the mountains, shop at an outlet mall and share many hugs. On the third day, I drive up the winding road to our NC property, only to find our shed, where we store our belongings for maintaining the land, nearly empty. Someone had broken the gate lock at the end of the driveway, drove up the hill and claimed our mower, chain saw, generator and many other items.
Yes, I asked “why me”. I said, “Lord I read your Holy Word daily, I thank you for my blessings, I lead a women’s group, what more do you want from me.” As the days went on the answer came, “You have a story to share with others. I have taken you through so much because others must know about my existence. You must leave your comfort zone and share your story so others know about me. I have given you everything. What are you waiting for?” Yes, he has given me everything as he has also done for each of you.
This week during my devotional time, I listened to some of my favorite Christian songs. One way God speaks to me is through music. He has blessed me with so many awesome songs, but the one he chose for me this time, left tears on my ipad. The song, “Carry My Cross” sung by Third Day in a youtube, video was far from comfortable for me. In this video, Jesus carried the cross for me. I can no longer deny God’s calling for my life.
I have experienced a lifetime of heartache, grief, devastation and trials of sorts. People need people, and no one should carry their burdens alone. Jesus carried the cross, took the nails, and died on the cross for forgiveness of my sins and a chance at eternal life. In his place he left his holy spirit which resides in each of us. Join me in the utimate unveiling so others can know healing under God’s salvation. At this moment, if you don't know Christ, bow your head and ask him to forgive your sins and come and live inside your heart. May His peace surround you on this beautiful day.
With all my love,
Jeanette Lytle